"We must let go of the life we planned, so as to accept the one that is waiting for us".
(I promise I'm not quoting Ezra Fitzgerald here)
I thought I knew what it meant because I like to think I'm philosophical, I didn't, that is until now.
Where is the line drawn between our childhood vs adulthood?
I thought I could answer this question back in December when I became legal. However, thats no where close to be being true.
In these last few months, I have had to face so many changes involving my future. Although most of these are on a positive note, the thought of making the right decisions gives me anxiety. I have had to learn so much on my own, things high school & middle school never taught me. I have learned and experienced hardships in the finance world, relationships/friendships, as well as finding myself and who I want to be.
I think the hardest part about growing up is knowing that there will always be someone who's on top. Someone who believes they have experienced everything and will never take you seriously because of the number representing our time on this earth. It makes me upset to know that people will never have faith in our generation without grasping our ability. There have been so many occasions where I have felt as if people assume that I can't decide whats best for me.
This brings me to leaving behind our childhood. We truly don't know anything about this world besides what our parents have been guiding us with. I think the transition from holding our parents hand and becoming our own individual is also tough. Its hard to know that our parents will forever have an opinion about everything we do. I do appreciate that they give me their input about things going on in my life, but at the same time I want to grow on my own. Thats not me being a rebellious child, (god do you know me?) Instead, it's me being confused as to why with certain situations we still stand as children, if we have been handed so much responsibility to deal with. I think most of us can handle the bad, and be willing to learn from our past mistakes. After all isn't that a part of growing up?
The quote has been one I have been living religiously through as I stand in the middle of a transition to college. These last few months have been both physically and mentally exhausting on me. I feel like I never have time to do anything. I am in the middle to trying to balance everything and everyone in my life. I am learning new things everyday and using it to become a stronger individual through all of this. In fact, I have learned that we can never truly plan what's coming next, I have been living life day by day, which has helped me to live life to the fullest and appreciate every opportunity that has come my way thus far.
Isn't this why they say things happen for a reason?
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